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The beats of my heart started to pound painfully in my chest, the imediate second you spoke to me. That small proof I knew I had that you even said, uttered a word towards my presence, blew me away...
Suddenly, my voice didn't seem loud enough to make you hear me, and there were so many words I wanted to say to you..

Words lost in a different past, waiting to be awaken from its deathbed. Rapid words, quick as the lightning, those who could even stab through a heart, but still, they hold a sweet and caring nature, one of peace and love.
I could just feel the flutter of millions of butterfly wings in my stomach, and the world just spun around... and around... and around...




And then it stopped. Abruptly, Completely, Shockingly.
The flutters came back to me as they squished through my guts, like a good punch in the stomach..
Sweet words became sour, became empty, questioning for your cruelty, for your thoughtlessness....
And indeed, questions filled my head. Angry, Sad, Sorrow filled questions.
Why did you do that?
Didn't you think of me all this time?
Why wouldn't you tell me all this time?
Why did you break our unspoken promise?
Why did you destroy this beautiful bond we shared?
Could things have gone differently?
Was it my fault?
Would you come back to me?
Who is she?
Who is this new stealer of hearts?
How did you fall in love with such thief?
Didn't you know you were everything I had left?
Didn't you know I still loved you?



A small hope in the infinite.
But now I have to say goodbye to this tear coloured sky.
I must forget.

Good luck in finding what you must. I mean you no harm, and only the best of life.


Now, let me crawl into my bed, my sheets await me to envolve me into eternal darkness.